This past month, I've been experimenting with just smearing some paint.
Usually I have colors in mind when I set out to paint something. So I thought, wouldn't
in be cool to just start playing with the paint? No direction in mind, just let the painting
steer itself. This was fun, engaging and relaxing ...almost like a meditation.
Funny, I went into it this with the idea that I wouldn't have to "Think"....turns out,
I was aware during the whole process. There was no auto-pilot with this one. If I wasn't working the colors, I was playing with shapes, contrast and textures. And I love that each person that stopped in front of it, means something different to each of them.
No one asked me questions about it, they just began telling me what it reminded them of, or what it looked like to them. I LOVE that!! Something so vague....it lets people interact with it in such a personal way. I'm not imposing MY interest on them (well....except for colors)
They can relate it to anything they love or are interested in.
It doesn't have to be a big statement about me and what I'm trying to say or what I'm interested in.
I really love that part.
So...expect to see some more of this. Every now and then, I'll have to take a brake from old stuff and girls wearing goggles!
Thank you for looking! Enjoy the day!
We're alive!! That's something to be very grateful for.
The dream isn't over yet.....get out there and play!
Another example of my letting go and allowing some truth to come through.
I had a master plan on this painting. This was the quick beginning that I was planning to add to.
I had an image of someone already in my head ....kind of a "Bring it" moment... courage, in the moment....no fear. An idea that kept presenting itself, and I wanted to capture it, in a painting.
So a friend of mine graciously said yes to model for the painting.
(even though it was totally out of his comfort zone)
This quick beginning, the part I thought was just a rough draft to what was to come....well, this was the "jewel". This was the gift I was given that day, but I threw it away!!! I painted over top of this....and let's just say, it was an epic fail. After this start...I tried to paint a look that wasn't there. I tried to paint a person that wasn't there....ignored the kindness, playful nature, more vulnerable look coming back at me.
I'm so glad I took a photo of the painting... before I began my painful effort of "Trying" to paint something that wasn't there.
This is a painting of the person that was in front of me.
I was so lost in my "idea", that I didn't see....
I got what I'm usually after, I tapped into a tiny piece of the guy in front of me.
A good lesson for me,
stay open...let go...things may not go as planned, and that's a good thing!!!
Drawing someone in front of me....I find it difficult, but of course...... the challenge is still fun.
Most of the time, I'm trying to capture a tiny essence of who I saw. My quick, rough gesture drawings capture so much more than a can get when I have time to think and "try" to draw correctly. I like the drawings I've created in less than 20 minutes.....the most success I've had, in my opinion, are the 1- 5 minute sketches. They might be only a few lines, but they can say more than a drawing that I've worked the technical aspects. What I win in technical points, I usually lose in emotion, capturing movement or their personality.
The more I go on pure instinct, leave my inner critic back at home, the more "life" there is in the drawing. That inner critic...she's such a pain!
She's always hanging out with me, but she doesn't get to vote as much as she used to :)